South African Womb Wisdom, the support of the Lion Shaman and Lions
 
It was written in the stars that three white lion cubs are to be born at the Drakenstein Lion Sanctuary in 2016. 
The birth of the white lion cubs at a lion sanctuary created an uproar amongst sanctuaries as it is their policy not to breed.  
 
According to Lion Shaman Credo Mutwa, ‘the african shaman sees white lions as transmitters if divine love and wisdom’.
 
There is an undisputable link for me between the visit of Sanusi Credo Mutwa to our mother city in 2015 and the birth of three white lion cubs all named after goddesses at the Drakenstein Lion Sanctuary in 2016. Sanusi Credo Mutwa offered many prayers here in our mother city. In a symbolic act of coming full circle, he drew the Ouroboros - the serpent or snake eating its own tail - in the sand on the beach using kelp. 
This representation of infinity and the creature’s ability to sustain it’s own life - eating itself, while providing its own nourishment at the same time. It also represents the cyclical nature of the Universe, from creation to destruction. It happens to be circular like a womb.
This lived experience of ceremony with two respected Elders of South Africa carries Golden Threads of healing for our mother city and for the rest of south africa.
According to Lion Shaman Credo Mutwa, the white lions are in fact Star beings who came to our planet for specific purposes.
 
The first time I visited African Shaman Credo Mutwa and his wife Virginia Mutwa, he asked me, "Why do you think I am still alive Ma’am? So may times I thought that I would die and I felt ready to go, yet everytime I kept coming back. Why do you think this is Ma’am?" I was overwhelmed by this question. How could I possibly have an answer. So I answered quite glibly, "Well you obviously had to meet us, me and my husband, Baba Credo". He only smiled and I keep walking with this question. Every year for three years after that visit, we kept extending the invitation for them to come and holiday with us. Every year either Mama or Baba was too ill to visit. Until last year, after a Priestess ceremony held at the Venus Pool at Cape Point. Where many sisters felt Baba Credo's presence and I invited them home and we called the Mutwa’s. And Mama Virginia said, "Just this morning Baba Credo said, I am ready to go to Cape Town now Virginia",and so the adventures of the Mutwa’s and a mother city womb temple unfolded.
 
Several year before I participated in an ancestral workshop with two local traditional healers, I had the most incredible dream where I changed into a roaring lioness after being chased by baboons. This was my first experience of lion medicine. It was not until my own womb healing was grounded within the sanctity of a womb healing pod at Fountain of Life and Seren and Azra Bertrand became my teachers, that the next phase began to flow. Three quarters through my first 9 moon apprenticeship, I held space for the Mutwa’s. I learnt many teachings about holding space, anchoring the frequencies of Divine Love, about grief and sorrow .... and about how receiving the gifts of love and care can shift deep woundings and pain. 
 
I visited Panthera after being prompted by a Sister and Womb Priestess from the UK. She brought me news of Panthera in Stanford and invited me to join her there. The following week 3 of us visited the lion sanctuary in Drakenstein. It was a beautiful hot day filled with the self knowing presence of lions and lionesses. As we said goodbye and drove away, I looked up into the blue sky and a cloud with the shape of a lion's head and the tail of a dragon appeared above us. We felt the presence of this fiery dragon energy amongst the lions. This passion seemed to emanate from them. This passion that lives within us that seems so distorted in our society and that is so difficult to embrace and embodied within our feminine physche.
 
A journey to the Mutwa’s followed in March 2016 and shaped by unforseen circumstances, we started our journey at the Drakenstein prison. We could not have known that all 9 of us, 4 adults and 5 children would stand in circle around the statue of Nelson Mandela, and that we would offer prayers for peace and protection at the start of our pilgrimage to visit lion shaman Credo Mutwa and his wife Virginia Mutwa.
 
On the full moon of 21 May 2016, a sacred circle of sisters and children offered prayers for healing and for the healing of our country  at Drakenstein Lion Sanctuary. Our sacred circle was held within a pyramid configuration that unfolded naturally. Three circles stretched across the land, held by women and filled with the golden presence of lions joined to form one prayer, one circle. It felt as if we were called by the lions to join them in prayer and not the other way around. The essence of pleasure emanating from the lions was palpable as we opened our eyes, our ears, our hearts and our minds to the lions and what they had to teach us. 
 
We watched as the lionesses spent ages grooming and cleaning one another. They were teaching girl time in a whole new way, while the male watched over them and had their backs. Their male mirrored the one male who came with us. We watched a tawny and white lioness sprawled out on the earth, simply enjoying one another. And there was nothing but purity in their togetherness. This was pure unconditional love given and received over and over. In silence the lionesses groomed one another, cleaned one another, they lay with their legs entertwined, their necks rubbing one another and their heads cradling each other. Their teachings were strong. A pride of lionesses spreading love.
 
Suddenly Loti the lioness jumped up, and trotted towards our circle. We sat facing two enclosures and she slowed down as she came closer to us. We all remained seating, watching and waiting as crows and ravens flew overhead adding their songs. She came so close, looked each of us in the eyes. When her eyes reached mine, my womb went into spasm. The energy so intense that I got off my feet and ended up and all fours for a few minutes, panting a little in into the spontaneous release. I focused on my breath as Loti continued to gaze at our circle. She sat down then and our awe at her acknowledgement of us could be felt in the air. She simply relaxed there,belly on the earth flickering away flies.
 
Both tawny and white lions have had an impact on me and my life this last year. The way lionesses put themselves first, the time they take to rest and enjoy being on the earth is a big teaching for many of us. We have so many reasons why we are unable to put ourselves first, while we similtaneously long to do so. The self acceptance of a lioness fills the air and she truly embodies self love. As she lives and hunts amongst her sisters she is the perfect teacher of sisterhood.
When she sits, her womb is rooted to the earth as a regal queen, grounded and waiting for the right time to take action. She is the great mother of protection - gentle and caring to her young and rising in a raor when it is necessary.
 
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Sanusi Credo Mutwa and Mama Virginia Mutwa held in the embrace of a Mother City Womb Temple
 

Womb temples, spaces where south african and african women came together to merge with nature and to honour all of life existed in south africa and africa long long ago. Ceremonies where women came together in honour of the web of life, blessed the masculine, the lands and all who dwelt there. These ceremonies where love and beauty were encoded into the surrounding spaces brought peace, harmony and beauty into being.


I first met the Mutwa’s several years ago when they performed a water ceremony on Camps Bay beach. The next day Mama Virginia wrote her number down and invited me to visit them. We spoke on the telephone often over the next few years until all was aligned for me to be able to spend time with them in Kuruman. For three years Baba Credo said that Mama Ocean was calling him and that he longed to be with her again but that he was too ill for such a long journey. During March 2015, both of them desperately needed the medicine that our ocean mother can offer and an epic adventure unfolded. Their request was for privacy and our intention was to offer them a space where they could receive. Several circles supported our elders and their time in the mother city. Sanusi Credo Mutwa and Mama Virginia Mutwa visited our mother ocean and offered their prayers. A small water ceremony followed. The longing in their hearts to stand once more in the presence of and on our holy Table Mountain was answered and together we sang songs of peace and love for all the peoples and for all of life there. According to Baba Credo ‘ the ancient ones said that humans were born from our sacred Table Mountain.
 
For years Baba Credo Mutwa has spoken of all of us returning to the ways of the grandmothers and of tapping into our mother minds as a way of bringing healing to ourselves and to the rest of the world. The pieces of a puzzle held in the hands of the Divine took shape as each of us brought our ancestral threads into our circle. In moments enfused with purity and beauty our Elders returned to walk this land, to be bathed in the frequency of this Garden of Eden where the ancient ones lived in balance, beauty and harmony. Garden means womb from the latin (hortus) and is a magical feminine space held in the innocence and beauty of Love.
 
We journeyed with our soul wounds and we witnessed the sorrow of lost dreams and the wound of unshed tears in the stories of Sanusi Credo Mutwa. 
In purity and with beauty our Elders returned to walk this land, to be bathed in the frequency of this Garden of Eden where the ancient ones lived in harmony with one another and in harmony with all of creation. 
 
We walked in the foot steps of the ancient ones before us. We prayed, cried and rejoiced at the feet of our Mother and we were anointed in her sacred waters. We were all part of a Great Remembering. To remember who we are. To remember how to breathe and how to receive.
 
 
 
" We must remember the holy things back and bring back the holy places to heal the people. Remembering will bring humanity to the root of the ancient soul and the old world must go into a new era without swords, only with hands that are clean" Sanusi Credo Mutwa

A Mother City Womb Temple was anchored and her frequency pulses througout the lands,in honour of all peoples and all of life. 

 

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We Give Ourselves Away
 
Self Love. Boundaries. Forgive. Cleanse. Heal. Reclaim. 
 
I spent years giving myself away. I gave myself away because I did not know better. I was taught that one must earn love. I did not know what boundaries were or how to create boundaries in a relationship. Creating healthy boundaries was a catch phrase until I had enough - spoke it and vowed to do differently, and a door opened for me to learn a new way of relating to myself and others.
I gave myself away because I thought this is what women do to be appreciated and respected in our society.
 
We give ourselves away in co-dependant relationships with our parents,lovers, our children and our friends.  We give ourselves away to keep the peace. To feel a sense of belonging in our families and with our partners. We give ourselves away to redeem ourselves. 
We give ourselves away because we feel guilty for being different. 
We play small when we give ourselves away and we inadvertantly send a message out that others are more important than we are.
We carry the stories of how our ancestors survived in our cells. Sometimes we carry their guilt and we give ourselves away on behalf of them.
We give ourselves away because of our own guilt - because we did not stand in our truth when we were called to do so, we lay down our own punishment - we give ourselves away in acts of redemption. 
 
We give ourselves away for our causes and our circles. Places where belonging and fitting in and feeling part of community feeds our souls. These sacred spaces are the closest thing many of us find to being part of a functioning family. Often all the same dynamics present within a family lives within our circles, and we have to learn how to speak up for ourselves, how to be heard when the majority of voices move in a different rhythm than us. 
 
When we have been in a spiral of giving ourselves away, we need space to feel and express our feelings and our grief. A new way of relating cannot open for us until we feel and grieve the old ways of being. In giving ourselves away, we have given parts of ourselves away to others. Those parts cannot come home on their own. 
 
I have experienced and witnessed in others what not having space to express our grief and our trauma creates in our lives and within the circles we are a part of. I know how difficult it can be to allow our emotions their freedom. And how scary it feels when our feelings finally come to the surface to be felt and expressed. 
Many of the structures within our societies offer no space for our true feelings. We feel forced to hold ourselves together even when we know we are falling apart. Often our circles are so tightly held together that there is no space to receive us fully when we are triggered. 
Most of us carry some form of trauma. This trauma in our bodies need to heal before we are able to stop the spiral of giving ourselves away. We need spaces where we can grieve and feel held. 
 
I now offer what I have learnt through my own journey. I leamt that feeling worthy is not based on self sacrifice. That Our Source - Our Mother Divine offers Her unconditional Love tp us regardless of whether we feel worthy or not. 
 
My Yoni Steam Sessions and My Womb Healing Journey’s are held in a way that allows space for all your trauma and your grief. With my shamanic drum I offer ways of calling back, of reclaiming and of integrating your lost soul parts. 
 
All of who we are is held within the fields of our wombs and haras.  When we reclaim ourselves from our epicentre - from the heart of our being we are able to come home to all that we are. 
 
 
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My own healing continues to be grounded in my choice to keep calling forgiveness into my being. I call the forgiveness that is like soft rain washing through my sacred body - a balm to my pain. The Forgiveness that has the capacity to teach me about my ability to open my heart to myself. 
 
I offer this invocation 'I Forgive Myself ‘. I see and feel how forgiveness clears my energy field and my capacity to feel my feelings. Forgiving myself means that I no longer hold onto beliefs that I deserve to be punished for my mistakes. It opens me to feelings of compassion and understanding towards myself and therefor to others. 
 
I start to see that I have done my best. That that is all I could do at the time. No matter what I think I could have done if only I knew then what I know now. Nothing else could be done with the skills I had then. I did my best.
 
Forgiving myself means taking responsibility for my own actions without burying myself in failure for what has not worked in my life.  It means saying that I am Worthy.  Yes, I am Worthy. I am Worthy and I can Forgive Myself.
 
It means I can no longer hide behind the blame game. I can no longer hide behind the story that I am not good enough, or that I am always misunderstood and every one else gets to live their dreams and visions. There can be no more poor me when I start applying this balm of forgiveness to myself. Without this act of forgiving myself I remain stuck in a story where I am the victim. Where some one is always doing something to hurt me, or betray me, or violate my rights. I remain stuck in the story where I cannot learn to trust myself. My finger remains pointed...
 
There is a well of compassion inside ourselves and as we make our intentions to forgive ourselves, this well rises to meet us.
 
I invite you to hold your left hand on your heart and your right hand on your womb or hara. Take a few deep breaths and feel how your roots grow deep down into the moist earth. Allow yourself deep breaths as you ground your intention to forgive yourself.
If you wish you can light a candle or create ceremonial space before you start. When you are ready,  speak your words of forgiveness to yourself out loud. I recommend you speak your words a few times and that you do so as often as is possible for yourself. Allow whatever you are able to offer yourself in the moment to be enough. May It Be So.
 
May Divine Love Embrace Us All. 

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On Saturday 6 February is the International Day of Zero Tolerance Against FGM.

On 6 February I will Hold a Free Healing Transmission called Healing the Flower. I make this offering as part of my healing journey and are inviting women and men around the World to hold hands with me and the Fountain of Life In a Worldwide Healing Circle as we pray for the Healing of our Sisters and all affected by FGM. We hold a candle to birth new ways to celebrate and honour our young girls and women here on our continent.
 
We know that there exists a cycle within which FGM thrives and survives. This cycle includes the families who continue to take young girls to be cut, the Cutters whose means of surviving is the monies earned from cutting, and the men who demand and in most cases pay for young girls to have the cut in order to prepare for marriage to them.
 
Thousands of years of female genital cutting has left young girls, women and men with a distorted experience of life and our sexuality. It has left us with feelings of shame, fear, betrayal, terror and deep grief.
Our experience of life has been altered as a result of these painful and horrific experiences.
 
Our Vaginas and Wombs are sacred and hold every trace of our deepest experiences. When shock, pain and grief is held within, we lose parts of ourselves. Our connection to life and the creative power that dwells in our sacred centers diminishes and becomes blocked. We move through the world from a place of disconnection and frozenness without knowing this is how we are.
 
When we allow ourselves to open to the grief that is frozen inside us, we begin to feel again as our tears start to soften the layers around our hearts. If this can be held in a container of forgiveness and love, we can integrate the most traumatic experiences and our hearts can flower again, in all it’s fullness and richness. 
 
I hold a candle for the healing of the yonis/vaginas and wombs in Somalia, Guinea, Djibouti, Sierra Leone, Mali, Egypt, Sudan, Eritrea, Burkina Faso and Gambia, all rated as the countries with the highest incidence of FGM. 
 
I hold a candle for statistics to be collected and Education to be made available and visible by the South African government, by the lawmakers in Lesotho and Indonesia where no statistics is currently been collated. But we know that FGM is practiced in these countries. 
 
On Wednesday 5 February, a young reporter Monique Hansen from the Children’s Radio Foundation based in Cape Town conducted an interview with me. It felt incredible for me to host my first radio interview with a young woman for a children’s radio station. It felt profound for me to be in the center of this young woman empowering herself with education on the subject and the young girls most affected by FGM.
 
Here is a link to our interview
 
May all the offerings of campaigners all around the world birth new traditions and pathways that support, nurture and show love to young girls and women in our country, continent and the rest of the world.
 
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